Me again

Maybe
Maybe if I write this down
Maybe I'll feel better

Family is tough
and for the most part
I've avoided most of it
the family I mean

Having a homosexual life
in a homophobic family
is not the easiest thing
but hey,
I've made it and loved them anyway.

But now, they want things from me I'm not willing to give
Like hospitality
Food
Funding
Good feelings
A welcome heart

I don't feel able to give
what I did not receive.

Love, love, love, love
Why can't I just feel the love and let it roll off
Like a duck's back

Roll
Roll
Roll

Someday
in my own time
I'll be ready.

Right now
I'm not.